Sunday, December 28, 2008

Last post for the year

Yes, I am making this officially my last post for the year.

I'll be out of town tomorrow, we're heading to Anawangin, Zambales for a camp adventure until the new year. So we're spending the new year in a secluded place with no electricity, no mobile signals, no hotels or inns, no beds and most of all no NOISE. Of course I'll blog about it when I get back. I hope I can make it as detailed as I can so when you it can be of help to those who want to go there too.

Anyways, how's your Christmas? We were at my sister's house in Bulacan and it was such a happy Christmas with all my nieces and nephews running around all day and all night. They didn't dare close their eyes on the eve of the 24th in anticipation of the gifts opening and we had games too for them. Here are some pictures. It was such a hard time choosing gifts for each one of them but it's worth it when you hear them say thank you and see how happy they are with thier gifts.

Another good thing that happened to us was I was able to buy tickets for me and hubby for our Macau missions trip on February. My cousin from Singapore informed me that there was an ongoing sale in Cebu Pacific, it was a christmas sale and it is indeed a sale because it is tax free. Guess how much is our airfare going to Macau? Php 450.00 all in. Only we leave Clark Airport but that's super ok with us. Where in the world can you buy a cheap ticket like that di ba?

Been here in our little abode since Friday evening and all I did was sleep and eat and play farm frenzy. I was too lazy to blog pa not until today because I have to do a Moen faucets assignment. I also made some efforts to clean and dispose trash and it feels good that the room looks a bit spacey now. I will still attempt to clean our bedroom tonight If I still have the energy because I still have to go to grocery later.

Well, I guess this has been a long post again, forgive me but it's the last post for the year so i do hope you understand.

Enjoy your new year guys and wishing you all a brighter 2009!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Christmas vacation please........

Guess what? I still have work 'till tomorrow from 8 AM to 8PM. tsk..tsk..

I'm so desperate to sleep and rest and have that vacation.

I'm exhausted from different Christmas activities especially yesterday. It was "Batang PAg-Asa" Christmas Party and there were 200 kids. But it's worth it. Their smiles are priceless. I'll blog a different post about it when I'm done uploading the pictures.

Everyone is waiting for the long vacation. And so do I, but last night hubby and I were talking about our schedules..gosh parang di rin ako nagbakasyon.

See this;

Dec 24-26 - Bulacan
Dec 26-27- San Mateo,Rizal
Dec 27-28 - Back to homebase
Dec 28-29 - CAvite
Dec 30 to maybe January 1 - ANAWANGIN ----> this could be the rest I am waiting for pero not so sure pa kasi camping lang to.

But just looking at it..pagod na ulit ako..

Anyways...Have a merry Christmas everyone!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Ten How's

Snagged this from Mai. Feel free to snag it too!
How did you get one of your scars? I jumped over a fence. A barbed wire fence. talk about adventures on my younger days.
How did you celebrate your last birthday? Nothing grand, just a simple dinner with close friends.
How are you feeling at this moment? I feel sleepy. I haven't been sleeping properly because of Christmas activities and stuff. I'm sure I'll be looking for best acne treatments next month. sigh.
How did your night go last night? Wrapped some more gifts but before that I was out with friends.
How did you do in high school? Good. I think i did my best especially on my fourth year.
How did you get the shirt you’re wearing? It was a gift to our Pastor, then our pastor gave it to hubby and then ended up in me because the size fits me well. :)
How often do you see your best friend? Very very often.
How much money did you spend last month? I don't exactly know and this month I don't want to know either.
How old do you want to be when you get married? I got married at the age of 33.
How old will you be at your next birthday? I’ll turn 36.


and the BLUE ME...

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New Direction for New Year!

Good morning everyone!

December is really a busy month for all of us. I admit my blogging activities were not as active as last month because I have so many activities to do offline. Yesterday, I was absent from work because we packed and distributed old clothes, rice and noodles to one squatters area in Makati. It was devastating to see these people lost their homes and everything in fire just few days before Christmas.

I’m done with all the gift buying and gift wrapping task also. It’s been a busy busy week as we scouted different stores almost every night to find a not so expensive but nice gifts for everyone on our list. And mind you guys, I braved the Divisoria in its peak season but only we went on the evening. I must say doing evening market is a breeze, though of course there are few stores to choose from, it’s still a haven as we are able to buy cheap but good gifts.

Well, its 5 days before Christmas, I still have work until the 24th and can’t wait to have the longest holiday vacation ever in my entire working life. Work will resume on the 5th of January.

I’m excited for New Year. I am excited for new doors that the Lord will open for us. We don’t know where and what doors yet but I’m now assured that God is already giving us new direction.

Hopefully, hubby will be able to continue his studies as preparation also for the task that is set before us. And since his schedule won’t fit to a regular school, we might consider finding online schools. I haven’t discussed this yet to him but I’m sure he’ll think about it. The convenience of being able to study at home appeals so much to me. And I think we can also save much because he doesn’t have to travel to go to school so that means less transportation expenses. I heard also that those accredited online degrees are less expensive than regular school.

And if God permits, I would love to study again too. This coming new year, I would like to learn new things, I would like to learn something about behavioral science or something about child psychology. I hope an online college major is not as tough as our regular schools.

Anyways, this has been quite a long post and thank you for reaching as far as this. I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Wordless Wednesday

Want fresh chicken meat?

cooked in a stove as old as your granny?

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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

serious business talks

Last December 03, I was given a chance to coordinate a wedding again though it’s only an OTD coordination. The client was a referral of a friend from the US. I went with hubby, with my good friend/cousin Michelle and a J-mie who is getting married too next year.

The wedding went well, we were there at the bride’s hotel as early as 10:30 and we were the very first to arrive to at the church and of course at the reception. It was a shame that we do not have any business cards with us because some of the wedding suppliers were asking for it. Now, that made us think to make this as a serious sideline, since we are doing it now and we are enjoying it why not venture into a wedding coordination business. Business plans has been the talk of our group lately aside from our ministries and we are now very serious into trying it. In few weeks time, we will be ready to send out the proposals to our very first business venture which is all about training. We are hoping and praying that we will be successful on this. This morning J-mie went to DTI already to register the company name.

I guess we should be discussing our business card image and style soon, along with the company logo. I realized now how essential the business card is in one’s business. Good thing there is a site where you can get online business cards and you can even get 250 cards for free. In these trying times, we need to cut on cost especially if the business is so new.

Next year will be a different year for all of us. I’m sure of that.

Amazing award

Honestly speaking, I was depressed when I received that sad email from the triple p. Thank God I have friends to cheer me up and most of all I have blog friends who think that I am an amazing blogger. Thanks for this one Irmee.

Now I would like to pass on this award to true blue amazing bloggers, amazing moms and amazing friends.

Wella and


Yes I am, I don’t know if it’s because of the season where everywhere and everyone are having a party thus the abundance of food. Look at this last weekend schedule of mine and tell me how could I avoid not eating?

Friday – 5 pm onwards – office Christmas party and I enjoyed the mango crepe so much.

Friday (yes the same day) –appreciation dinner for the volunteer workers in our church, I was late because I came from the office Christmas party. I love the veggie salad.

Friday (after the dinner) we went to starbucks for my (lost count of it already) can’t resist that red cup.

Saturday – we had an event at hardrock and at the same time it was my boss birthday.

Sunday – My group in the church (young couple/young pro) costume Christmas party and my oh my! The cake, the spring rolls and the adobo were all yummy!

It’s not over yet for I know this weekend there are several parties again.

Now, please tell me were to buy diet pills for I know I’ll surely need one right after this month.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

A different Christmas

A Christmas with no Christmas d├ęcor at all.

That’s our home err..our small room rather. Last night hubby and I were taking if we will still put up our tree and some lights noting that it’s only 14 days before Christmas. He said he can put it up today. I don’t know. I used to be so excited in putting up Christmas decors but it’s so different this year. I think circumstances occurred before this month hindered me from doing so, plans about moving on and a lot more things made me forget that excitement and all.

I am not even excited to wrap those gifts already bought for our godchildren. And I am not even excited for Christmas parties to attend to except for one exclusive party for my group of friends on the 14th.

This will be a different Christmas for me I guess. Actually it is now.

Monday, December 8, 2008

And welcome to the world

Liah Jane Moceros Leoncio

Born : December 2, 2008

I wish I could hug you now and cuddle you but since you are thousand miles away, let me just hug and kiss you in my dreams. I love you even now and I promise to be your very good Tita naning. I'm sure Mommy Jie and Daddy Lester will take really good care of you. God bless you!

Welcome back to me!

I wanted to be cheerful because it’s Monday the beginning of the week but I just can’t. I still feel tired and I have been feeling dizzy since Saturday morning. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I had my blood pressure checked yesterday and it is normal. Praise God for that but why do I feel this way? I know something is wrong. Could I be pregnant? People around me keep on saying that but I think I should know If I am or not. I’m delayed as usual so I still have to check on that aspect too.

Anyways, the concert is over so I’m done with one major activity this December 4 more coming up so I’ll still be very busy. I don’t even have time to tidy up our little room and more so do the laundry so I might need the help of Ladybug steam cleaners.

I’ll try to check on other blogs later. For those who keep on dropping their cards, thank you so much. I owe you big time.

Friday, December 5, 2008



Another good shot from hubby's eyes. Taken last summer at my sister's home in San Jose Del Monte, Bulacan, Philippines.

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Shop, confess and WIN!

I admit I am not even halfway to buying my gifts this Christmas and it’s already December 03. Its 22 more days before that big day. I have been very very busy for the past weeks and will still be for the coming weeks. I have this favorite place where I buy my gifts because it’s a lot cheaper but at this point in time, I’m pretty sure it is now crowded especially now that people are skimping on their gift budget. People tend to look for discounts and sales everywhere. And I do the same of course. As I have said before online shopping is always a nice option, just think of that time you’ll save if you do your shopping online. I can even work while shopping right?

By the way, there is an ongoing contest at It looks great because you can win lots of prizes just by confessing or as they say “coming out clean”. All you have to do is go the website, register and confess! And this will be the last month for the year so why not take the chance of getting that gift you want for your self this Christmas. Register now and please do tell them that this blog post referred you. Who knows I might receive a gift for my self too. So that means verybody happy!!

For more information, you can watch the video of the contest here.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Thankful Thursday

This week I want to thank God for the following;
* Thank you Lord for my passport approval :)
* Thank you for I know you will provide for our airfare to MAcau on February 8 to attend the regional conference of International teams.
* Thank you for the wedding (which I coordinated) thank you for sustaining my strength.
* Thank you for that "red cup" last wednesday night. Toffee nut has now become my favorite.
* Thank you for the provision for our fund raising concert on Saturday.
I give you all the glory, the honor and the praises!! For more thankful souls click here.

Sad E-mail

Got this on hubby's inbox tonight. Sad but I'm sure it is not that bad. If God closes a window, He will surely open a door somewhere.

As you know, we work really hard to make sure the blogs in our network are of the highest quality. So, you may have heard that we're enforcing stricter controls for blogs submitted to the PayPerPost network. Unfortunately, your blog does not meet our standards for overall quality and will no longer be able to be used for accepting marketplace opportunities. Payments currently pending will still be made to your supplied PayPal address.

SO goodbye now PPP. Thank you for everything!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Forgive me

If I don't drop back in your site..

If I don't blog hop...

If I don't update..

Yours truly is over busy to the maximum level.

Promise to return all the favors of dropping and hopping as soon as I have time.

Thanks.. and miss you all!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Tag Train #14

PLAYERS: A MOTHERS HORIZON | Swept Away | God's best gift | YOUR BLOG.

1. If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used?
~ The one he especially composed for me :)

2. Have you ever just started dancing/singing in the middle of somewhere?
~ Singing most of the time.

3. When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness?
~ Taste!!!

4. Would you name a child of yours after you?
~ Nope but we named a niece after my name only the English version. Though my name is not as famous as Manolo Blahnik.

5. How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer or is it only as long as it works?
~ As long as it works fast and good.

6. What makes you weak?
~ Physically- lack of rest, Spiritually - Lack of God's word

7. How do you connect to the internet from home?
~ Pldt (DSL)

8. Do you wear anything with sentimental value?
~ my wedding and engagement ring

9. What advice would you give to a friend with cancer?
~ Trust GOD, He knows what he's doing in your life.

10. In time for Thanksgiving, what are you most thankful for this year?
~ Good health of the whole family.

11. If you could say only one thing to the world, what would it be?
~ Love.

12. When was the last time you let the people you love/people who are important to you know you love them/that they are important to you?
~ I always do in anyway I can, sometimes not through words but in actions.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Busy and Long day

It was such a busy and long day for me. I was up at around 4:30 AM and was already out of the house at 6:00. I must say I accomplished a lot today. Passport done and will be released on the 22nd of December, so that was a major accomplishment for me.

It will also be a busy weekend (as always) for me. I think the coming weekends will be the busiest for me this year. Several Christmas parties coming, a fund raising concert and a wedding to coordinate, well at least I have friends I can count on to for help.

Oh..the Twilight is now showing and also the Eraserheads concert. I wish I can see anyone of the two. My golly, I have never been into movie house since ages. I don’t even know that there’s a kind of home theater lighting now. I would really love to se twilight. I hope I can ask hubby to come with me.

Anyways, tomorrow is a long day again so I better hit the sack now. I’m like awake for 21 hours now. Sheesh.


I still cannot believe that hubby captured these beautiful sky photos one afternoon right there outside our window...

Notice how he captured the the blue colors? beautiful! I am now his No. 1 Fan. lol

Looking forward for more beautiful sky photos from my hubby's eyes
And if you want to see more visit skywatch today.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Safe in Good hands

I haven’t tried inquiring more so of buying any kind of insurance. My eldest sister is the one who I think invested in this stuff. And now that economy is not good and there has been many pre need companies that was force to close, the biggest I know is the CAP, I don’t think it is best to get insurance at this point in time. However, if you still wish to get life insurance I guess you just have to search for the best life insurance rates there is or educational plan if you want that. It is best to equip yourself before buying such di ba? And research about the insurance company, know their assets and liabilities if you can, their investments so you would know if you really are in the good hands.

But in the end, it’s still GOD who knows the future and we are always safe in HIS mighty HANDS.

Thankful Thursday


And though IRIS is not hosting the regular Thankful Thursday this week I would still want to give praise and thanks to God.

First, I thank God for hubby's passport which he is gong to receive on the 18th. God honored our very first step of faith. Mine is still pending but I'm quite assured that I will also be granted a passport.

I also want to Thank God for what breaking my heart last night before HIM. Indeed a broken spirit and a contrite heart, HE will not despise. I thank God for giving us the time to really soak in HIS presence through non-stop praise and worship.

I thank God that HE will provide for our very first mission trip to Macau in February. Thank God for the provision for that trip and for giving me extra income through paid blogging. For the weekly assignments like the las vegas hotel reservations I have to do now.

You are a great GOD and I praise you for LOVING ME!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Where oh where?

The hunt for that nice and yet affordable house to rent is still on going. I saw one that I like last Saturday that is very near our current place too. It has two rooms with a small veranda, it also has a big living room and a laundry area. I wish I could afford the monthly rental though which is beyond the budget I am allocating.

I really would want to buy a house of our own someday. Even a small house in rural area would do. I would love to decorate and arranged my own furniture. Like the way Schumacher Homes designs the homes they built for their customers. They also help you find and built your home the way you want it to be. Look at this lovely kitchen;

Now, I wish I could at least make a my kitchen as bright and as spacious as that.


at least one of my blog friends thinks I am and I am grateful for that :) Thanks so much emz! Now I would like to pass this one of a kind award to my wonder woman blogger friends too. This is for you NANCY, MARI, JACQUE, LISA, VICY, JAMMY, JOWN, and CARMEL!

Wordless Wednesday

It's wordless and I'm hungry. I could eat a whole plate of this.
Visit more wordless entries here.

Broadcast your phone messages

The one I am going to talk about is another wonder from the internet world. There are too many now, can’t count them on my fingers anymore. It never existed before where the only communication people knew is through writing letters and verbal, and then came the telephone. And the technology as we all knew didn’t stop with the telephone, and then came the beepers, the cell phones, and now the internet call.

I used to wonder how the telephone was invented and how it works, I stop wondering now how we can make phone calls through internet and how it works. All I know is that it makes life lighter and easier especially when you have family from a distance.

Now, we can not only make calls through internet but you can actually do Voice Broadcasting. It is the newest telecommunication method where you can broadcasts your phone messages simultaneously to hundreds of recipients. No not only to hundreds but to thousands of people actually. That’s like real broadcasting with a much cheaper cost. is the site where you can do that, they also offer robo calls for political organizations. I guess politicians can take advantage of this if they want to win. And they do a lot more telemarketing jobs.

I wonder what’s going to be next in the internet world. Let’s wait and see.

Passport application update

Good Morning! Though it is really not good to me because I wasn’t able to secure my passport this morning, I’m thankful na rin that hubby’s application was approved, he will have his on December 18. We were there before 6 AM and guess what? There were plenty of applicants lined up already. I thought we will be first in line but nope, good thing there are chairs so you’re sitting while waiting for your turn. I can’t wait that long standing on my feet unless I am using an MBT shoes which somehow helps in correcting your posture while standing.

I shall go back to DFA tomorrow and I’ll make sure I’ll go earlier so I’ll be on the first line. Please keep on praying It ‘ll be ok this time, armed with old Identification cards I hope I’ll be done by 9 AM.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Step of Faith

Wish us BEST!

We're going to DFA tomorrow morning for our passport application. It was supposed to be this morning but we woke up late and also hubby has this regular staff meeting that starts at 8 am. We finally decided to attend the IT Regional Conference in Macau on February 8 to 12. Encouraged and inspired by people who mattered to us, we will take the step of faith. This will be the start of our many missions trip together-we were made for this.

Step of Faith because if we will look on the money we're going to spend on that conference there's no way we can do that. As you all know, my hubby is a full time staff of our church and they only get meager amount of allowance monthly. And though I am working, there’s no way I can afford that trip for both of us.


So we’re taking the very first step tomorrow as we go to DFA to apply for our passports.

I reviewed our documents and so far it seems everything is ok.

Will let you know how the application went through tomorrow.

Got the image here.

Lovely trees

Can you imagine how beautiful a tree fence is? Look at this Leyland Cypress Trees. See how nice it is? How I wish I could have that kind of fence in my own yard someday. I love greens because they look so peaceful and hubby would definitely love it too.

These trees can be order through mail and according to some of their clients they do shipment fast and the quality of the trees are good. You gotta love those tree fence. Even if you are not a seasoned gardener you’ll have no hard time growing them because they grow fast.

I so want a nice landscape and I dream of having it right there on my yard someday.

House hunting

Yes, we’re currently looking for a house to rent, probably in Makati area or Manila but near Makati area. We started the hunt last week. It’s not easy to move on, the place where we live now is such a blessing because we are provided our own room with free electricity and all. But sometimes you just need to move on and spread your wings.

I know this new journey my hubby and I will be traversing will increase our faith and will let us see how God provides for His children.

The mission’s house has become our comfort zone and it shouldn’t. So we’re leaving our comfort zone to where God would allow us to soar high and hold on to His promises.

Can you join us in our prayer for these please;

1) God’s direction
2) Wisdom to know His will
3) Provision
4) Humble hearts

And I hold on this verse from Mark 11:24

“Jesus said, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.”

Monday, November 24, 2008

Accessorize It!

It’s the time of year when we decorate our home with reds and greens, with golds and silvers which are all so good to look at. Now, if you’re such a theme adherent you may also use accessories with Christmas colors like this Holiday Glass Frames From Zenni Optical. Yes, they are The popular online eyeglasses shop that offers $ 8 Complete Rx Eyeglasses. If you want something christmasy to wear everyday you can do so with your eyeglasses. Advance Merry Christmas everyone!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Tag train #13

PLAYERS: SIMPLY ME | Swept Away | God's best Gift | Your Blog

1. What do you and your parents fight/argue about the most?
~Money and sometimes decisions
2. What’s your favorite song at the moment?
~ right at this very moment? "Worthy is the Lamb"
3. Any plans for tonight?
~ It;s already 11:42 Pm so I guess to go to bed would be the best plan
4. If you could have any job what would it be?
~ I'll go for Mai's answer..yes, stay at home mom or wife.
5. What is your favorite time of day?
~ no particular time but it would not be in the morning
6. Do you like mustard?
~ yeah..
7. What kind of phone do you have?
~ A nokia which model I forgot (office issued phone)
8. What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go?
~ my wallet and my cellphone
9. How is your relationship with your mother?
~ I am her confidant..naks! I think I am her shock absorber now..
10. If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
~ Summer.
11. Is there a girl/boy that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
~ hubby
12. Do you regret dating anyone you dated?
~ yes
13. Do you always answer your phone?
~ yes, if i missed a call I'll send a text
14. Looking forward to something this week?
~ Payday! woohoo!
15. How did your day go yesterday?
~ Quite full with lot's of office works.

The next stop of the train will be on this blog.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Coats and jackets for the cold season

There is a buzz going on about Roca wear. And what is that buzz all about? Let’s go find out.

Is the buzz all about the 25% off they’re having for the men’s basic and the lounge pants 2 for only $30? Or is it about the contest on holiday prize pack where you can win Roca wear favorites worth of $350.

There is a lot going on over there so if you have time, visiting their site might be well time spent. There are also nice Roca Wear Coats and jackets available in store for everyone. As we all know winter has come too early. So shop till you drop and enjoy your holiday season inside that warm jacket and coat.


I've been in the blogging world since 2005 but only became active last year. I started to build links and build friendship in the blogging world as well. Now, I can say I have blog friends that even without meeting them in person I can say they are my friends.

And Nancy, I'm so flattered by this. Thank you so much my dear from the bottom of my heart.

She gave me "The real Person" award. Thanks sis.

And thank you also Joanne , Shiela and Jown for the friendship flower.

You are all a sweet blessing in my blogging life.


The SKY, The Clouds and the Windmills.

The first and the only one in the Philippines. Located at Bangui, Ilocos Norte.
More skywatch here.

Chocolates this Christmas!

What’s the most delicious chocolate for you? Do you think you already have tasted the best Chocolate there is in town? I guess not for me, first it’s very seldom that I do eat imported chocolates, second there are variety of chocolates all over the world. But wait, have you heard of Gertrude Hawk Chocolates? If you haven’t then here’s bit information about them.

It is a chocolate company based in Pennsylvania. They create gourmet chocolates like dark chocolate, fresh fudge, caramel dipped apples and a lot more. And I heard they still use the same ingredients Gertrude Hawk used in her kitchen long time ago. Imagine the same ingredients from way back 1930’s or so?

And because it’s Christmas, they now offer holiday gift collection which I think is awesome. What a wonderful gift to give and get this Christmas. Yummy! Take a look at these tempting photos below :)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Thankful Thursday

This thankful Thursday,

I want to thank God for the direction He will give us, for the instruction and teaching in the way we should go, for counseling and watching over us.

Me and hubby are still praying for it actually, but with faith in HIS word in Psalms 32 : 8

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.”

I am confident He will answer our prayer and will lead us like HE leads HIS sheep.

For more thankful souls and inspirational posts, visit GRACE ALONE-Iris’ blog.

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Am I Ready to be a parent?

Got this quizz here. Are You Ready to Be a Parent? And guess what I got? hehe!

You Are 100% Ready to Be a Parent

You are totally ready to be a parent.
You pretty much have your life in order.

In fact, there's a good chance you've been thinking about starting a family.

You are financially and emotionally stable.
You would provide a good home for a kid.

It's also likely that you understand kids well. You've spent a fair amount of time around children.

If you're already a parent, you are doing great!
Keep it up. More kids wish they had parents like you.

I know..I please God..let me be a parent soon!

love love pictures!

I love taking pictures although I must admit hubby has the gift of taking beutiful photos and not me. I accumulated tons of photos ever since I got my first digital camera. And even when digitals are still unknown to the world, I already am hooked in keeping pictures. Back home, I have so many photo albums and every time I go there I look at them and all the memories preserved with the pictures came to life all over again. Nice feeling.

And now that we are living in the digital world, most of don’t keep pictures on albums anymore but on hard discs and view them in their computers. And I always do that too. I never get tired of looking at those pictures. But before you can do that you have to upload your pictures to your computer first. And you don’t have to worry of running out of memory because there’s also available website where you can upload all your photos and you can even let your friends view them. See? Another internet wonders.

One time, we went to a retreat and we can’t wait for our pictures to be uploaded in the computer, we immediately watch it on the big screen of our tv. Hubby plugged it into our television monitor and viola, viewing them on a big screen is indeed a pleasure. Now, if only we have an LCD TV, that would have been way way better. Right? But then again, I still enjoy looking at them both in computer or in TV as much as I enjoy taking them.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Vitamin D and PCOS

Honestly, I've been reading a lot about PCOS ever since I was diagnosed but I only read about Vitamin D and PCOS just now, so in top of the rest of Vitamins that we have to take we still need plenty of Vitamin D. I will take note of that.

So I am now into "what are the good source of Vitamin D?"

See how this Vitamin D can help us.

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  • Improved fertility (a big problem in PCOS).
  • Controlling weight (a big problem in PCOS).
  • Liver health (fatty liver disease and damage is common in PCOS).
  • Reducing insulin resistance and avoiding pancreas exhaustion (common in PCOS plus increased risk of diabetes).
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Got that article in my monthly PCOS e newsletter. If you want to read on the rest, click here.

That's MY WORLD tuesday

My second post for this meme and today I'll show you more of my hometown. I do miss the ambiance and the simplicity of a province life.

When we went there last summer, I was bale to capture this picture. You can see this everyday in front of our house. This animal is the most important animal in a farmer's life. I haven't tried riding one though.

And the vast expanse of rice fields. Nueva ecija is the rice capital of the Philippines and I promise to take more good photos of beautiful rice fields this December.

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Website design for our church

I’ve been planning to buy a new domain not for me but for our church, I want our church to have each own website too but my limited knowledge in IT is making it impossible for me to push through with the project. I searched for church websites not only here in the Philippines but also in other countries and I was amazed of how beautiful, how good the designs of some websites are.

It is with this that I began to consider asking some IT Consultants, I admit I cannot do it on my own. Web full circle is a good site to look for web oriented service, whether it is about web design or Ecommerce or search engine optimization, they have it. IT outsourcing is so in today,why? because of the availability of someone to do the job you required in the time you need it so it means less overhead expenses.

I know it is much better if we outsource the website design from professionals. We will just tell them what we want and what we need and I’m sure they’ll be able to do it good. And the maintenance won’t be too hard for us also. Less work for me, less hassle. But we have to secure a budget first.

So what do you think? it is better to outsource it no?


Eds gave this to me. Thank you so much sis! And to keep it going I am passing this to CARMEL!!! She's a very new blogger so let's see if she can do this kind of meme now. Oh she writes good devotional materials so if you want to be inspire head on to her blog. Click this.


“Don’t let the Candle of Love, Hope and Friendship die. May God richly bless you as you keep this candle burning. Pass it on to all your Friends and to everyone you love.”

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Monday, November 17, 2008

It's shopping time!

Well, for those who have money I guess. This last weekend was probably the weekend with the most stores on sales. I saw lot’s of malls with on going sale, why? Because it was payday and a weekend and yes people are already doing the Christmas rush. We went to a small store yesterday which was also on sale and of course what can you expect? A lot of people so major headache and leg ache afterwards.
So right now, I am considering much the thought of buying gifts online. I’ve seen a lot of online stores lately and was able to visit at least 5 of them this morning. Think of not going out and braving the crowd on weekends, enduring the long lines to the cashier and all those shopping nightmares during this season you can imagine. All of that we can avoid if we do shop online right?

As I was browsing online stores this morning I saw one beautiful and sleek reading lamp from shopwiki. This one is just right for our room and perfect for my night reading so I think I’ll again include this to my home wish list. Me and hubby needs a good reading lamp. And I saw night lights that are so colorful and beautiful too. I wish I could buy them all.

There were also books available there which I still have to browse. I even saw a lot of good stuff on sale actually from Electronics to clothing and to almost everything a buyer might need.

So if you’re not yet done with your Christmas shopping like me and you don’t want additional hassle you can do your shopping online. I’m sure you can find many many good stores and good stuff out there in the world of internet.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

seeing old, good,true friends

I received a cal last week from a friend way back my Cabanatuan days , and it felt good to be reun ited once again, we went in their place to celebrate Fedorah's daughter's 2nd birthday. Was I happy? Yes! very much althought there were only five of us. It is indeed great to be reunited. We're hoping for more get together soon :) and there was an abundance of food!!! wow! grilled bangus and tilapya, tokwa't baboy, pansit, siomai, rice cake (from Nueva Ecija) cake, ice cream, maja blanca. I imagine all those foods now and I feel like I am hungy.

From left, (dax, michelle, mcoy, fedor, me and jeff)

I took this picture on our way home, there were plenty of this along Las Pinas Road, I just don't know exactly where. Christmas na nga!!

Join pepperjam Network

Good morning! This is very rare for me. I usually don’t blog on weekends more so on Sunday mornings but here am I.

Well, I had a blast yesterday seeing old friends. It was such a nice feeling. I miss them so much and the laughs that we usually shared. It’s a blessing to have friends you know you’ll be friends forever. I’ll post pictures probably tomorrow or later tonight.

For the meantime, if you are still looking for extra income on the net, I know we all do especially now that spending season is here, who wouldn’t need an extra moolah right? I found an Affiliate Network and I’m interested. Pepperjam is the name of the company and I’m sure you have heard of them already. They’re one of the very first in the market so they must be very very reliable and for us publishers we need someone like that. We need partners that can provide us all the resources we need to be successful. I saw lots of bloggers already affiliated with pepperjam and if you’re not yet one of them, why not join now?


Thank you so much NANCY for these 2 beautiful awards :) I appreciate all these kind of wards and I am happy to have them here. I would like to pass on the same awards to old blog friend caca and mari. LOve you both!

Friday, November 14, 2008

IT Outsourcing work and weekend

Weekend is here again and this time I have something to look forward to. Tomorrow morning we’re off to Bacoor, Cavite. I’m going to see old friends from Cabantuan and I’m so excited. I’m sure there will be lots of stories to tell and lots of updating to do. Can’t wait for tomorrow.

But then, I have to deal with the “today” first.

And today means office work and that includes a research for IT Outsourcing companies here in Manila. I don’t know if there are lots of them here but I’m quite sure there’s plenty in other countries. Have to see advantages and disadvantages of outsourcing too.

Well, guess have to start it now.

Happy weekend everyone!


Looks like "something has landed" a UFO perhaps? but no..this is a sunset photo taken at Puerto Galera.
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Thursday, November 13, 2008

Thankful Thursday

I am so thankful today for what the LORD did last night to me and to hubby together with some special people in our life as husband and wife.

Something bad happened actually but God turned it into something good.

Praise God for the humble hearts, for the PEACE that transcends all understanding, for the JOY that PEACE brought to me and to hubby.

It is indeed the HANDS OF THE MIGHTY GOD that moved upon us. We were able to talk and discuss the past and gave each other a big hug after the talk .

God knows I miss them so much. I miss their embraces so much.

And most of all because of this incident I learned and for that I am THANKFUL.

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008


I took this picture when we went home to our province last April, it was our barrio fiesta so there were parades and band like this one. I miss this and I was happy to be able to see one again. You can often see something like this during fiestas and of course there were lots of foods too. I still remember when we were still kids we use to go to small carnivals that are being set up during fiesta month. We love the rides and the cotton candies. Beautiful memories. I seldom go to my hometown now a days and I admit I also want my would be kids to experience a life in the countryside. My sister is planning to build a house of her own there someday and she also wants to have a home business when they retire. While me? I don't know, for now our plan is still in focus with going out on the mission field wherever that maybe.

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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

headaches and pressure

I slept last night with a terrible headache and I woke up this morning with the pain doubled. I don’t wanna take medicines as much as possible but I can’t bear the pain so I took one right after my breakfast. I can’t go to work if I didn’t.

I’m thinking of so much “pressure” as the major source of this headache plus it was so hot yesterday. And I admit I am stress with all these activities and responsibilities I have. Good thing the Lord never fails to remind us not to stress out but stand still.

I still have lot’s of to do’s for the benefit concert we are doing. There are still tickets for distribution, poster for printing and a lot more promotion to do. I haven’t met with all the concern people yet for the coordination meeting and I only have 23 days left.

Talk about stress, pressures and headaches. I have them all now.

Edited :

Just an hour ago I got a call that the venue we reserved for the concert is no longer available for us..waaaah! and that we have to move our date to December 06. That's unfair!!!!!!!!

8GB SD Card

If you’re planning to take a lot of pictures this coming December because we all know December is a season not just for Christmas but for many different occasions too like weddings, reunions, parties and all. You might want to buy an SD card that you can rely on so you’ll have more rooms for pictures less the hassle of uploading it in your computer immediately. I found an 8 GB memory in the net which was priced now at $32.24 which honestly I don’t have any idea if it’s cheap or expensive. But that is really a huge storage. I only have 2GB now and yes it is often too small for me and hubby as we both love to take pictures everyday. But sad though that I can’t still upgrade, there are still lot of priorities to settle before that.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Paypal money!

I's not Thursday yet but I would like to do a thankful post which I have in mind now. I just want to thank the Lord for the paypal money I am regularly receiving for months now. It's not that huge but it is a big help.It helps us pay our monthly bills, it gives us little luxury like eating out once in a while and most of all it is a big help in both our families too because we do send support to them once in a while and we're also sending my youngest sister in law in school. It also helps us buy small stuff for the house and I know all the gifts I'm buying this December will come from that paypal money.. Who knows one day I'll be able to buy that lcd monitor too. It's on the top five of my wish list now.

Not everyone has given the chance to have an extra income and I must say it is a blessing indeed.

So for that..Praise you LORD who provides for my every need!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

DingDong-Karylle break up

I know I am not a showbiz fanatic but I was quite sad when I heard the news this afternoon about Karylle and Dingdong break up. I heard her statement from showbiz central and I can feel she's hurt and of course you don't want that to anyone showbiz or not.

If you haven't heard or read the whole story yet which was featured at the Ricky Lo's Philippine Star column, you may catch the whole article here.

Photo credits : PEP

Most celebrated milestone in life

I missed two coffee breaks already and I know I’m late for this week but nevertheless, I still want to make a post about it.

For now, I consider my wedding as the most celebrated milestone in my life. Why the wedding? because it is indeed a milestone, a change in status, a change in environment, a change in lifestyle. It is a total and complete change of life.

And also our wedding was by far the most memorable event in my life, from the preparation to the exchange of vows to the reception. Everything.

I am still waiting for a bigger milestone to happen in my life that would topple the day of my wedding, probably that will be the day when I give birth. But since it is not happening yet, I still have my wedding day in top of my list.

Well, I guess I’ll consider learning how to unlocked cell phones too as a milestone but I guess hubby would be first to do that because he is more techie than me.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A heartwarming, true story about the realities of life, love and marriage

I received this in my email from an egroup yesterday, and right there at the office I cried,this afternoon I retold the story to my husband and know what? he cried too and then we hug each other telling ourselves how important the open communication is in marriage. This is a very sad story and I don't even have proof if it's true or not. Please read on and take a box of tissue with you or a hankie would be better.


Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking

Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with
us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured
much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him
through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal
and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony
facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery.
Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started
spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he
said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to test
on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment
put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both
refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head
continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this
kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For
example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she
could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people
spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the
flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will
also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby
smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people' s habit; slowly you will get use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever came
home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she
would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home
with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they
cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it.
Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell
her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction
to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In
your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the
breakfast table, mother facial __expression is always like the dark clouds
before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her
chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a
dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from along day of
dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few
minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the
protest mother makes.

>From time to time, mother would help out with some
housework, but soon her
help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds
of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that
resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp
on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to
hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again. One day, late at night,
mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom
door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult
position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I
pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored
me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and
said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating
from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"

After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me
and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house.
During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to
please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother
took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any
prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating
his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to
perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I
resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it
because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not
to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as
feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby
sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no
choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a
sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my
throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw
down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out. Just
as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly
in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me
with fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out of
it, I really didn't mean it. We had our very first big fight that day;
mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the
house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the

For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so
furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with
her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the
feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with
all the events happening at home, I was at then low point in my life.
Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go and see a

The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I
threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that
otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this
before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day?

At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been
three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one
look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He
followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know
me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I
have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my
"Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me around
in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my
tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the
test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and
the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the
lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the
money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book
and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for
good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a
few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a
good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird
look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the
hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time
I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his
face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the
tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral,
hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare
at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other
people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward
the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the
countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she
tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up
that morning, if we had not quarreled, if...In his heart, I am indirectly
the killer of his mother. Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every
night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt
and self pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him
that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look
in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back
in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding
though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came
home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living
together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot
in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I
saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed
her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that
moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and
stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and
there is no need to say anything.

The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby
stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging
me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the
brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I
will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to
indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He
did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from
work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to
take some of his stuff.

I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to
him vanished.

I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and
again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical
examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the
baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps
it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole
house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this
piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it.

In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find
peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a
while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like
mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you
cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out
from there.

After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I
smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pulled the paper towards me.
Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the
paper to him.

LD, are you pregnant?"

Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not
control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said:

"Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat,
facing each other.

Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket.
In my heart,
everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never
reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me,

had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't.

In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his
eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scares in each
other's heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional.

I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now,
what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.

Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to
my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys
for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.

>From the moment I signed on that piece of paper,
marriage and love had
vanished from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I
will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's
room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept
quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would
fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he
would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time I cared for
him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there between

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing but i continuously ignored him.
Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products,
children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it
stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to
reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice
but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his
computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that
matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late
night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into
the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for
this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding
my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the
journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and
hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth
body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as
much as he did?

He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes
caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.

Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me, his eyes
tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby
looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried
out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of
his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth
is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was
already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this
long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor
said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."

I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room
and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me. Hubby's cancer was
discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that...
the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just
for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall,
is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many
happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only can accompany you throughout that
journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no long has that chance. Daddy
has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may
encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can
refer to daddy's suggestion.. . Son, after writing these 200 thousand words,
I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest,
daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one
who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

>From play school to primary school, to secondary,
university, to work and
even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written

Hubby has also written a letter for me:

"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I
have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want
to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My
dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile,
thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to
our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every
year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging... "

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over
and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son
to remember being in the warmth of your arms..."

He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his
arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the
camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly
rolled down my face...

A fatal misunderstanding and the person who love me the most in this world
is gone forever.

Author unknown.